So, let’s go back.
We wouldn’t talk immediately after school because you played ball; I had homework. Taking a glance back, I realized that this is it. This is us in a vulnerable state; we’ve thrown our harshest feelings on the table and now we have to re-establish and build something stronger than what was before. We’re comforting each other in unconscious ways that give us a sense of security that no one else can provide. And only we can make sure that the growth of a new ‘us’ is fostered well with communication, trust and effort. If we hadn’t gone through any troubles, we would’ve been a typical couple based off the physical things. Sure, we would’ve survived in this cold world, but what would we have learned? Now that we’ve gone through the thorns and had some shit thrown on us, we’re fighting to keep this bond that people spend their entire lives searching for. I just have to look forward to being able to feel what I felt the night he asked me to be his. All of this is worth it because I know that I want this.. I want this really bad. And because I do, I’m going to do something about it right now. ..To when we were ‘in love.’
We texted each other good morning and to have a good day at school.I did something I shouldn’t have.. I started to question my ability to win you over again. Then I looked back to our very first days existing in our ‘pillow talking’ stage and it was always like this because we were in the process of becoming what we were.
We’d start texting at about 8PM - 9PM to initiate conversation.
We’d get tired of the texting and call each other.
We’d talked about anything and everything to get to know the other’s thoughts.
We made annoyingly adorable jokes and sickeningly cute insiders.
We’d tell makeshift stories and rap songs.
We’d finally say goodnight, sweet dreams, and sleep with our phones still connected.
Then after a few moments of silence, we’d whisper “I like you” and g’night again.
