Skylar, I was foolish. I was senseless. and at the time .....

I was foolish. I was senseless. and at the time .. I was afraid.

My insecurities and ambiguity towards our relationship is what prohibited it from excelling and growing into something healthy. I realize now that, because of me, because of my lack of faith, i led it to decline in to the dirt instead of leading it to blossom. i’m the one at fault here and i know my apologies and pathetic attempts at consoling you will never come to par with the extensive amount of heartaches I’ve provided instead of providing you with what you truly deserve, love. please believe me when i say i had nothing but benevolent intentions going in to this .. but somewhere along the way the lines between my trust in us and self doubt became blurry and i sided with the side that didn’t include you.

I am sorry for pushing you away when the objective of this ‘game’ for you was to show me that I could trust and allow someone in my heart without hesitation. We both did some fucked up things but i suppose it was the fear of being hurt that scared the shit out of me, and. In the end, i hurt myself.